Current mood:	aggravated
Current music:	Mastermind - MSI

White Lies and Whore Houses
This isn't me stroking my own ego, but I'm too honest and good hearted. I know I'm not the beacon of morality, but I definitely try to do the right thing as often as I can.

I had a job interview (for some money on the side) at Midtown comics. I did great overall (the comic helped), until we got to future plans. He asked what I thought of this gig. I honestly said I want to immerse myself more in the comic world to increase my ability to write it while also making some spare coin. He asked about future gigs and if I'm looking for writing jobs, and I admitted that I will always be looking and I love writing and I'm following the dream, but I would never accept a job if I thought I was just gonna bail. He appreciated my honesty, but I believe my honesty cost me the job (he was nice and straightforward, actually, though he left some doubt that it's still a maybe).

The thing is, I actually beated (beat...the hell is the proper grammar there?) myself up over it the rest of the day. If I had lied, the job would be mine. And I talked to my parents and boss at MMF and they agreed, that I should have sugar coated the truth. OK. Maybe. Fine.

THEN WTF IS THIS HYPOCRISY WITH ELLIOT SPITZER!?!?

Don't get me wrong. He's retarded. He said, in a speech "I'm sorry to my friends and family." BULLSHIT! Don't insult my intelligence. You're only sorry you got caught.

But here's the thing: this guy LIED to get his job and upheld the beliefs he thought would get him where he wanted, not how he actually felt. Is comparing his story to mine extreme. Yes. It absolutely is. But the principle is the same. So a little lie is OK? A white lie? Shouldn't lying just be wrong, end of story?

I just find that we bend the rules according to what benefits us and our conscience the most. I know he was more in the wrong for lying about whores than me lying about future job plans, but seriously. I feel like little lies lead to big lies. It snowballs. Once one thing becomes an exception, you test the boundaries more and more, and then what happens? Why aren't we ENCOURAGING being honest?! Why isn't honesty rewarded? Instead, adjusting the truth Michael Clayton style is the way to get the big happy ending, not being a good person. But don't fuck up! Don't you fuckin' dare get caught, or else we'll just chastise you for taking our own advice.

I only rant because I'm conflicted by it. I feel that being a good person isn't enough to get where you want to go. But is it really worth degrading your beliefs and opinions of right and wrong? Maybe Spitzer was a revolutionary with great ideas, but he was an eccentric. Maybe he got a wife and family and hid his whore house ways because he knew the public would hate it and he had to play the game to do the right thing. This requires giving the guy a huge benefit of the doubt, but seriously. Where is the line?

That's it. Oh, and Fenix Gear is nearly sold out. Pick it up a copy now, because I don't think I can restock the shelves once they sell out (I need to keep a strong stock for comic con).

I'm (sold) OUT!